Living With A NewBorn

My sweet little tiny baby girl was born on the 5th of Oct 2012 around 5:25 pm … I had some complications & had to go with C-section to get her out (another post will follow about my delivery at Alseef hospital).

I woke up in pain & feeling dizzy … started mumbling some stuff & started saying sm words to my family members who were there! Of course they started laughing at me πŸ˜› …. They showed me her picture that they took when they showed her to my family & honestly I got scared … I mean, she looked so tiny, small, & short. She looked really scary.

Next morning, I asked for her, & they told me that I have to go to NICU & see her. What’s NICU? Neonatal Intensive Care Unit. My heart started beating & I got terrified, smth is wrong with my baby. They assured me there’s nothing wrong with her except that her weight is below average & she has to be under observation. I just started walking, & I’m telling it was really painful but I didn’t care about the pain because I was dying to see her … She was sooooo thin & tiny but healthy el7mdellah!

I returned home 2 days later & the big action started … When I was in the hospital, people were taking care of me, but when I got back home I had to take care of a very fragile baby, not to mention taking care of myself. Thank god my sister took 2 weeks off from her work & was there to help me through this tough phase.

I was so scared to touch her, changing her diapers was really hard coz I was still in pain from my c-section & in the same time Β i was trying very hard not to harm her. But it was fun πŸ˜›

Staying up all night long feeding her every 2 hrs, & snoozing while doing it lol πŸ˜› Not being able to sleep properly because of the wound. Getting up/off the bed was really really painful you can’t imagine the pain. & I had to get myself up every now & then at night to feed her … It was really exhausting & painful but worth it.

Post-pregnancy depression kicked in the minute I got back home … I started crying for no reason at all. I keep looking at my baby’s face & cry for hrs … I went to my apartment (which is in the same house, dad’s) & felt overwhelmed, I wanted to go back home, return to my apartment. I keep calling my aunt crying telling her that I want to go back home πŸ˜›

Talking about “me time” … dream on new moms πŸ˜› I have to find some one to watch her so I can take a quick shower. I check social media networks through my phone for a couple of minutes. Only today, I was able to open my laptop, write a post & arrange some of my baby’s pictures πŸ™‚ me time is no longer mine ….

The wound started to heal, pain is becoming less now & I’m able to sleep properly like an hr every 4 hrs πŸ˜‰ my body started coping with the little amount of sleep. I dunno about the depression, when will it go away, but I’m hoping soon nshallah!

I know this is only the beginning … more to come nshallah πŸ˜€

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20 thoughts on “Living With A NewBorn

  1. 7ayate wallah allah egawmkom both bl salama hehe she is so tiny but then again she’s mashalla adorably cute! And I am not a mom but I do know that the depression should fade away soon just be patient and don’t spread yourself too thin. If you feel that you need help then please just mention it, because that’s the first step of you getting out of the depression.

    Only 2 weeks enshalla and I will be spending most mornings with you πŸ˜› So keep on being happy πŸ˜› And anticipating me! πŸ˜› And let’s hope I don’t buy the entire US for little Juju!

    • hahahaha bassech buying πŸ˜› & yalla come back, i’m becoming bat woman these days, can stay awake for god knows how long πŸ˜€

      • I will try but I can’t promise I can stop buying! πŸ˜› I have 2 things in mine and then I’ll be done! πŸ˜›

        P.S. Mom is now picking owl clothes for baby Jana! πŸ˜›

      • 7bibty wallah, say hi to ur mama :* can’t wait to see what you got for her πŸ˜›

  2. il7amdillah 3ala salamtich;* And she’s beyond adorable mashallah! So tiny!!!! Allah y7afeth’ha! I absolutely loved reading this post, it’s like your journey all in a blog post. Inshallah the post pregnancy depression goes away for good and you’re back to yourself again. Take care xx

  3. Catherine

    Mashallah so cute!! Millions grats hun, I’m so so so so so happy for you πŸ™‚ Take care of yourself and get well soon πŸ˜€ Can’t wait to see more more baby pics from you!

  4. this post was just so adorable.. i had to do it once with my nephew and witness the waking up and going to feed him every 2 hours wasnt fun.. i am not a mom and i felt overwhelemed..

    Allah ye9abarik and inshallah this depression is just a phase coz the hormones are not in place yet but inshallah u will be ok very soon..

    baby jana looks adorable mashallah..

    alf mabrook again 7abibty :***

    • tell me about it … & waking up to every voice she makes thinking smth is wrong with her :/

      nshallah ya rb o allah ybarek feech sweetie :*

  5. AMATraveller

    its a whole new world now πŸ˜› awal shay el7mdella 3la slamatkum both . you my friend :** and my new love baby J :** its not going to be esy this new mommy world but Im so sure you’re going to be fine and do great too πŸ™‚ and ofcourse let’s not forget the balance πŸ˜‰ always have your time on your list πŸ˜‰ and let’s fix a date I wanna come and see you both :**

    • Hala o ‘3la Ama :*

      I know it’s not easy at all but never thought it will be this hard πŸ˜›

      you’re welcome anytime my dear πŸ˜‰

  6. Hafsa

    Aww mashallah she is adorable…I can so relate to how you are feeling, I went through all this with my baby but believe me, after a month or so, these will just remain as memories, all the pain and depression will be gone and in a year or so you will be ready to relive it all over again!;)
    Really looking forward to your post regarding the hospital and all…I need some info regarding maternity hospitals in Kuwait and was thinking of emailing you as well πŸ˜‰
    Hang in there and don’t battle the depression alone, it will only become worse! Call out to friends and family even your doc…Inshallah all will be fine soon..Big kiss to the little princess and a hug to you!

    • Oh god no, I’m not ready & I won’t be ready again lol πŸ˜›

      I’m working on the post about the hospital & yeah I’m hoping that soon the depression will fade away!

      thnx dear :*

  7. I’m so happy for u! ;* Just thinking of those couple of years back… Wallah Swair kbarna! LOL ;p Jana is so adorable, and I love the name! Ismilah 3laiha… Allah ysahil 3laich elrubaht, wya36eech el97a wl3afyah ^_^

    • Eeeeee Ambro remember when I used to at7al6am about society, marriage blah blah blah? Now I’m married with a kid el7mdellah! C’est la vie πŸ™‚

      7abeeebty maga9artay wallah mwaaah :*

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