This year has been really really great for me. From the beginning up til this month, where everything started to deteriorate. Why December why? I’m going through some crisis this month that I’m trying to over come. Every now & then I feel I’m gonna give up but somehow something is holding me back! I’m tired, very very tired & I don’t know for how long will I survive this or for how long will this crisis continue in my life. And no it’s not about my marriage (I know what you’re thinking reader 😛 )
I have strong faith that it will end sooner or later but will I have the will to go through it. I feel sharp thorns are poking me from everywhere & I can’t get them out of me. I keep praying to Allah hoping for a way out.
I’ve been very emotional & nervous since the beginning of this month. I cry watching, reading or hearing anything. I’d cry hearing the prayer while I’m at work, i’d cry reading Dua’s sms on whatsapp. Everything would literary make me cyr. And i also get angry on everything or anything I see infront of me.
Please, Allah make this month go away & along with crisis & bring me a brighter one.